Thoughts and Feelings: What Goes On Inside My Squishy Brain

Summer school: that time of the year where students squish 16 weeks of school into 4 1/2, causing a singularity and destroying half the city, earth, or what have you.

Honestly, as much as I actually enjoy finishing a class and not having to worry about it, doing summer school is rough. I actually prefer it in a way, you don't have as much time to get distracted from the work and mess around. At the same time, you don't have as much time to get distracted from the work and mess around.

As many of you should know, I am a huge fan of getting distracted from my work and doing something else; in fact, if I could do that consistently and not get punished for it, I totally would, but alas that just isn't the case. Playing video games, browsing the internet, and hanging out with friends is great and awesome, but it all becomes meaningless if it isn't distracting you from something. Whether that be stress or more stress, you need something to be distracted from for all activities not related with the stress to be fun and awesome.

I've been reflecting on a lot of things I've done in the past year and remembering what I was ignoring and what I was ignoring it with (hanging participle aside). Strangely, it brings back fond memories of my friends and growing closer to them, not the stress of failing to accomplish what I was ignoring. It doesn't make me want to ignore the big stuff more, actually it's making me realize why the stuff I was ignoring is so important. Aside from being super important for me to be a good person--in addition to a good husband--if all I'm doing is ignoring what needs to be done, ignoring it gets boring and stale, invalidating the very reason why I'm goofing off.

Just something that's been on me for the past... I'll say four hours, that's the time I've been consciously focusing on it.

I wish you well and hope you all remember that I actually exist,

Caleb James Nelson

Remember me? No?! Yeah, I don't blame ya...

Man, six weeks without a post, I'm not keeping up with this too well like I planned. Well, guess I should start talking.

For those of you who don't know, about a year and a half ago I was introduced to a table-top system that I fell in love with; the Lucid Gaming System covered everything that I disliked about D&D and the d20 system and did it in a way that made sense and that I liked.

A few months ago PtME, the super small company that created the system, went dark and I heard next to nothing from them. Yeah, I had a friend who was connected to them and filled me in on some of the details, but overall I didn't know how much was absolute truth or what he speculated about; Wesley is great and all, but I got the feeling that even he wasn't entirely in the loop, just how things go.

Anyways, on Monday I went to check out their online forums. It had been a while and I had a question or two I thought would be good. When I first got there it didn't click--I thought I had input the web address wrong--but after another try I read what the webpage said; the PtME site had expired. So I made a trek over to their Facebook page (something I had no idea existed -.-) and posted a comment about it, asking what was going on. I knew that two of the three original people had left because they felt it was their time but I had heard that the project had continued one way or another. Today I got their response:

"Hey Caleb, right now the project is on hold. No one is working on it or doing anything for it. I am not sure when the project will continue."

I can't say I was happy when I read the response, but I'd been hearing things and rumors and so I wasn't too surprised. I wished them luck and thanked them for responding, ending with telling them to stay safe and awesome. I've met and talked with pretty much every main person involved and can say that I am on good terms with them. They are all great people and appreciated me voicing my opinion and giving my view as someone not part of the company; seeing as everyone that I know that has played the system has helped the company and considered interning for them, they don't have many people who aren't part of the company in some way--they're kind of awesome in that way :)

I don't really know why I've made this post, it's just something I care about; LGS is a source of many good memories and friends and I hope they come back to the project. Until then, the phrase "no one is working it" is kind of a lie. I know people who are working on it right now trying to perfect the system and expand on somethings that aren't complete. While PtME itself may not be working on the project that doesn't mean it won't go forward, the fan-base loves it too much to let it stay stagnant.

I guess the reason I wrote this is to inform more people about the table-top game that I love, to help persuade the company to come back and work on something I know they love and that has plenty of fans trying to spread their knowledge and get LGS the fan-base it deserves. D&D is great and all, but it doesn't have the personality that LGS does.

Anyways, thanks for reading (or not reading, how many people actually even know this exists?)

Working on my next level in Nerd,
Caleb James Nelson

Level Up in... Video Games?

This semester I am taking a Technical Writing course. This course is meant to teach you what you need to know for the business world, at least text wise for things like memos and stuffs. For my midterm I was to write a business proposal for my final project and treat it like I needed it to be approved (because I did). The teacher had the class think of a few ideas in class and shortly type them out so that we could figure out what we would do.

Well, I put down doing a hands-on, teaching seminar for beginners (specifically people with little to no experience) in fighting games to introduce the basics and it got approved. Actually, not just approved, but basically chosen by my teacher because it was the best of the three ideas I had; this means that for my final project in Technical Writing I need to play video games so that I have the experience to be able to do my final project: I have to play video games for school.

Honestly, this took me by surprise as I totally did not expect it to be decided upon of the three ideas that I had. Anyways, because it would be difficult to teach the class with a hands-on seminar, I'll be creating a video to show in class of me "teaching" my friends how to play; not exactly the proposal, but she's approved this because of the constraints of the class.

Tl;dr: I have to play video games for school because my teacher approved my idea to help beginners get into the fighting game community. Anyone for a high-five?

Lvl 5 Ninja/Lvl 2 Mathematician/Minor in VIDEO GAMES,

Caleb James Nelson

Another Obligatory Post

Bleh, I just really don't feel like posting, as the ten day break implies. I don't know, I'm just so out of it, I don't feel like doing anything. It's been a joke for most of my life that I'm a lazy bum, but honestly I'm not sure that's really true. I work at things I'm interested in and I don't for things I'm not unless I feel it is necessary. Besides things I have a passion towards I am apathetic at best.

Well, that's really all that's on my mind.

Gradually leveling up my Math Skillz,

Caleb James Nelson

That one post you feel is obligated

Everyone always has those days where they don't really want to do anything but they do because they feel obligated. Well, this post is one of those days. If I'm going to write a blog I should write a blog even if I don't feel like it. So, to keep you guys in the loop, lets go over what I will be doing this week.

Tomorrow I have Calculus II from 9-9:50 AM; I'm going to get there about an hour early so that I can read through the chapter we are about to go over so I better understand the lecture (and so I won't be late to class). Between classes (10-10:50 or so) I'm going to go to the math lab so that I can get some stuff cleared up, some misunderstandings that I came across while doing homework. Then I'll rush to Physics (11-11:50) and sit through class enjoying myself. I must say, I love math and physics.

Then I have about a two-hour break between classes from 12:00-2:00 (my next class is 2-3:20) and this is when I go to institute. I'm giving the devotional tomorrow so I'll have to prepare tonight and finish right before class so that I'll be ready. With that awesomeness resolved, I go to my counselling course.

For about an hour and a half we go over the readings we have and get back the test we took last Wednesday and then I'll be done for the day. This process repeats again on Wednesday and Friday, though I don't have my counselling course on Fridays and we get food in institute :D

That seems enough for now so we'll stop there, can't be giving you ALL the info right now, that's bad writing ;P

-Caleb James Nelson

Happy V-day?

Today went by fast, and it was very uneventful, at least valentine wise. I think this is my first Valentine's Day that's gone by without me pining, in some way, to be with someone, that's pretty awesome. I saw some stuff on campus, but it all seemed so trite, so completely meaningless...

Whatever, it'll probably be different once I'm married, it was when I was actually going out with someone, but it wasn't like I HAD to do something, I just wanted to, you know? I wanted to show my appreciation, but I didn't feel obligated to do something grand and over-the-top. Maybe it'll be different with someone else, but I won't know till it happens.

On a less v-day note, I've been playing Metroid Prime 2 lately and man do I love that game. It's hard to describe how, but I think it's because it feels like I'm actually going through an adventure, like I actually have to think about what I have to do instead of always being told. On the other hand, it can be really annoying when you have no idea what to do, just that you got a new power-up and you have to use it on something. You have to remember where you've seen things that will interact with your power-up so that you can come back once you get it, and it feels good when you do remember, or you figure out the riddle it gives to you, but it can be frustrating.

Anyways, I'm now satisfied, for today, with my Metroid progress and it seems that I always have about an hour at the end of the day before I need to sleep; scripture reading should fill that slot, but I'd rather read earlier in the day so I don't feel like it's some chore I have to do before going to sleep. So far, I've been decent about reading during the day so I have free time between 9:30-11:00 or so, but it varies a bit each day.

Well, that seems enough for now.

May your tracks be sightless and your math correct,

Caleb "Math" Nelson

Level Up! 2 levels in Math!

I had honestly forgotten about this blog, but I'm glad I found it again.

I recently moved to San Marcos, Texas to go to Texas State University so I'm in a whole new part of my life. School is awesome and I really enjoy all of my classes; Physics is kind of strange, but that's the teacher, not the subject. I learn from her just fine, but on the first test I didn't get partial credit on the problems we had to work out. I'm going to talk to her during her next office hours to find out why and what I did wrong--I can understand not having the right answers, but there is no way I did nothing right in the work process.

Anyways, that's what's on my mind right now.

May your tracks be sightless and your math correct,

Caleb "Math" Nelson